| Don't ask. |
[Feb. 8th, 2006|08:13 pm] |
This is all I can think of...
The pain teared up your secrets, with the lies they told to you
And the least they ever gave you was the most you ever knew
And you wondered I where these dreams go, when the world gets in your way
What's the point in all this screaming, no one's listening anyway.. |
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| Allendale |
[Jan. 23rd, 2006|08:37 pm] |
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I hate Allendale and all of it's people, except for maybe some professors and a very few people |
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[Jan. 10th, 2006|05:16 pm] |
Life just isn't going my way.
Kenzie dropped out of school=Amber with no roommate. I hate life. I need someone to room with me...and I don't want it to be someone random. Too bad I don't know anyone. I suck. |
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| Stupid chick |
[Jan. 10th, 2006|09:10 am] |
I am in the computer lab because someone broke my printer. Which means everyday I have to go to the computer lab. It totally sucks.....
So today, I go there and this girl insists on printing 2 slides to a page, which seriously has taken 15 minutes.
If someone wouldn't have broken my printer.
I am very aggitated this morning.
I have better stuff than to do this. I.E. actual homework.. and I have class soon.
Alex, I love you. And I'm not mad that you figured out what we were doing...I just wanted it to be a surprise and be special. I miss you |
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| School. |
[Jan. 9th, 2006|02:35 pm] |
Today sucked.
First, our shower was clogged so I couldn't take a shower for 2 hrs.
I couldn't sleep last night
I had to get a parking permit and the office didn't open for forever.
I have to do 4 hrs of community service.
I miss Alex a lot. I made him mad yesterday, and I feel really bad. I love him a lot. I wish I could see him everyday.
I saw Sofie Grant for the first time in like 2 yrs.
I called Anne.
I am in a class with Kara Gauthier, anyone remember her?
School is hard.
I quit.
Now I have to poop. |
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| Love you |
[Jan. 5th, 2006|04:10 pm] |
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I've done a lot of things I regret, like letting some friends go and not being able to let go of the past. A lot of people hurt me, so it was really hard letting someone into my life again. I hate the fact that some people still have that weird impact on my life, like I just want to spill my guts to them, even if they don't care, or never really cared in the first place. But I've found the person in my life that makes everything ok, lets my mistakes pass, doesn't critisize and accepts me for being me. We are entirely different people, but that's what makes it so great. The fact that he isn't the same as me is partially what attracts me to him. He is so unlike any other guy, I can sit with him and just be content being in the same place as him. There's still alot to work out. I am so bad at getting to my emotions, seeing as how I am used to keeping them inside. I need to work on communicating and not being so damn independent. I need to be less stubborn, and realize I can't win all the time. But, it will work, because we will make it work. Because this is what is important, and when you love someone, you just can't let them go. |
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| VROOM |
[Jan. 4th, 2006|03:28 pm] |
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I finally got my liscense!!! |
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| GRRR |
[Nov. 2nd, 2005|05:30 pm] |
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I hate it when people talk shit about me behind my back, especially when I am in the next room. |
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| HA. |
[Oct. 27th, 2005|07:17 pm] |
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I'm getting a 2006 Toyota Carolla for Christmas....but I have to get my liscence first.... |
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| Marathon |
[Oct. 27th, 2005|08:34 am] |
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I think I want to run a marathon. I just ran 2.5 miles this morning and it sucked, but I feel so much better....so maybe the longer you run the better you feel? Anyway, my new resolution = running at least 2 miles 5 days a week. |
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| Celeb crushes... |
[Oct. 18th, 2005|10:12 am] |
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 I HAVE TWO CELEB CRUSHES..the first one is Oliver Hudson, he is Kate Hudson's brother, and the other one is Chris Evans, who was in the Fantastic 4
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| Friends. |
[Oct. 14th, 2005|12:06 am] |
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I'm sorry, to all of you. To Anne and Caitlin and Jess and Elizabeth that I didn't talk to you as much as I should over the summer. I'm truly sorry to see our friendships gone because I miss you guys. To Jess, I feel really shitty,and I know it's my fault. It's hard because of us let stuff roll off my back, and I know that if you were mad at me you would never let me know. I know that I have to sit down and try to fix what I have wrecked, I have to do that with pretty much everyone. I know that friendships don't heal over night. I know that I've been stupid for not talking to you. I just figured that maybe you'd like to come to me for once. I guess I figured if you guys were friends that it would survive anything, but maybe I'm wrong. Maybe I'm naive. I just know now that I'm more alone than ever. |
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| I need to study.. |
[Oct. 12th, 2005|04:13 pm] |
Taken from April
1. Seven things I plan to do before I die
*study abroad/student teach in Australia/ London
*become a physical education teacher
*move to North Carolina
*get married and have two beautiful kids
*coach tennis, track or soccer
*change someone's life
*be a better friend/sister
2. Seven things I can do
*poop anywhere, anytime
*eat a LOT
*make you laugh
*fall/trip without trying
*talk for hours about nothing
*SLEEP
*break something
3. Seven things I Can't do
*drive
*cook
*procrastinate
*spell
*care about what people think
*forget the past
*miss Alex
4. Seven things that attract me to the opposite sex
*built
*athletic
*eyes
*sense of humor
*intelligence
*face
*hair (blonde/brown)
*not stuck up
5. Seven things I say most
*For real
*are you serious
*dude/man
*your mom
*this freaking blows goats
*you suck balls
*scotty no
6. Seven celebrity Crushes
*Ryan Cabrera
*Brad Pitt
*Matthew Mcconaughey
*Andy Roddick
*Adam Brody
*Katie Holmes(not in a gay way)
*Joshua Jackson
7. Seven People I Tag
Whoever wants to do it...I vote, Elizabeth, Kevin, Annette and Megan if they haven't done it.. |
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| Philosophy |
[Oct. 6th, 2005|11:00 pm] |
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Someone should help me write a paper on Nietzsche and resentment before I fail out of school and go back to Korea to become a rice picker. |
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| Homesick.. |
[Sep. 9th, 2005|12:18 pm] |
| [ | music |
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I don't know what it is, I just don't feel at home right now. I know that it has a lot to do with me running away every weekend and the fact that I spend a lot of my time talking to Alex. It seems kind of stupid, and maybe I'm living in a fantasy world, but for some reason I really think it's going to work out between us. I've never felt anywhere close to what I feel with Alex, and sometimes I'm cautious about it because everything happened so fast, I didn't have time to think about it. It sucks when everyone tells you that you're never going to make it like your parents and co-workers and friends. That makes me want to try even harder. I've never been away from the person I loved so much for so long. It hurts so bad and it is so unnatural. I gave up a lot for this relationships. I'm sure a lot of my friends are no longer my friends. I never thought I would be the girl to give up everything for the sake of a stupid boy, but alas, I am that person. And I know if it ends I'm going to be lonely, but that's the route I've taken. Do I regret it? No, because that's how I feel right now and I'd do it all over again. Sorry. I think it will be better once I don't go home every weekend. I'm looking forward to seeing everyone from MA. Maybe this weekend I won't get in trouble.... |
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| I think I lost my best friend... |
[Sep. 7th, 2005|05:14 pm] |
Now, my roommate and I were inseperable last year, but this year...it's totally different and I don't much like it.
It probably has to do with the fact that she's good friends with my ex boyfriend which makes things weird. It probably also has to do with the fact that I have a boyfriend and I talk to him at night. It just seems like we're not in sync with each other.
We don't have classes on the same days and she has a job from 6-10. Then I go to sleep. Maybe it will get better when I know how much to handle and become adjusted again. Maybe it will be better next semester when we have classes on the same day..maybe.
I really wish I didn't pull away from everyone this summer, but it was a choice I made. I kind of cut myself off from the world for a boy, which I need to have a more balanced relationship.
I am really homesick and I just got here yesterday and I leave on Fri.
I really want to cry right now because I feel like I'm all alone. |
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| Sleep |
[Aug. 31st, 2005|07:00 pm] |
I hate it how I expect to take a nap for 1/2 and hr and fall asleep for three.
Yeay for my Asian math professor....he makes me laugh.
Time to do homework because I came home, ate, talked to Jess and passed out. Boo.
Boo to working labor day weekend from 9-10. Not something I'm looking forward to...except I miss the people from MA and my boy TONS. |
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| Whoop... |
[Aug. 30th, 2005|05:02 pm] |
So my birthday was pretty good. Alex came up a day early to celebrate with me. I got roulette even though I don't know how to play, and a mirror. I got a Dora the Explorer Night Light from Stephanie and Christina at work, Aly gave me a pig, and Alex gave me a giraffe. I drank later that night, and I couldn't exactly walk.
So classes started, I have the most Asian man i have ever seen in my life. He has the thickest accent and doesn't know when to make something plural or singular. I was like "Jesus, my people are invading"...I just kind of sat and laughed at him. Besides that, classes suck. I have two people I graduated with in my classes, neither of which I really like. What can ya do.
Off to my 6-9. I really hope I don't fall off my bike, I've almost done that and it's not very fun. People laugh. Adios. |
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| Fool me once, shame on you, fool me twice shame on me... |
[Aug. 25th, 2005|10:05 am] |
So I try everything in my power to be friends with Lindsay, but it just seems like she doesn't want to be my friend. I was so upset about everything that happened between us and I thought it was finally over, but I don't know if it is. I am the one who has to call her and come over...it's like I'm friends with her on her terms. I was just hoping that everything between us would go away and maybe we'd pick up where we left off, but I don't think that's the case. It makes me mad because I shut her out of my life, but I think it's going to be cool so I let her in, just to get shafted again...
So I'm going to be 20 in 2 days, I'm excited, but more excited to see Alex.
I love our apartment and Jess. Her mom and two little sisters have been staying with us.
I really don't want to start classes.
I'm sorry for everyone I didn't talk to this summer. |
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